I pray for the strength to keep the fake smile on my face to stay. I pray that the feeling of truly not being okay goes away. The reminder that things are in God's time, but right now, I feel everything crashing around me and I just don't want to open up to anyone for fear of seeming weak minded. I just want to be with our Father in Heaven. But, I have to be reminded that he obviously has a plan for me or I wouldn't be here. I just need strength.